Waking by Matthew Sanford

Author:Matthew Sanford
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Rodale
Published: 2014-10-18T04:00:00+00:00

The disintegration of body. We are all living a death sentence of sorts, and it is delivered to us through the disintegration of our bodies. In some ways, I was lucky to be exposed to this truth so early. If the arc of life is drawn as a bell curve, then at thirteen I received this news on the upslope. So much lay before me—the natural momentum of my life force was still strongly forward. This was not a decision that required effort. It was an energetic fact.

Seeking begins when the options presented are unacceptable. The path before me included a troubled mind-body relationship and dwindling prospects of health. At thirteen, these truths were not obstacles to confront. They were part of the air that I was breathing. If I was going to live, I needed to live the mind-body relationship my life had dealt me. My arm strength didn’t have to overcome it. Unfortunately, this would take years for me to realize.

Even now, I can still hear myself answering my father during that summer between third and fourth grades. Can I control accidents … the course of my life … my disintegration? Not exactly, but I can live the experience I actually have. Seeking means believing in one’s experience. I think he would have liked this answer.

What this implies for my experience of rehabilitation is something else again.

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